Wednesday 7 January 2015

My Boo

With all this excitement surrounding the imminent arrival of Bean, I'm becoming more and more aware that Boo's time as an only child is rapidly drawing to an end.
I don't think that she will miss the time when it was only the 3 of us, and I don't think I will either. We all want this baby as much as each other and I think we're all ready for this new stage in our lives.
Nevertheless with only 2 weeks till D Day and my body rife with hormones, it's got me all maudlin and sentimental. 

So I thought I'd write a post dedicated solely to my beautiful, barmy Boo.



I used to work in schools and nurseries and I always found myself gravitating towards the loud, confident, "loony" children. And having been a painfully shy child myself I always hoped that my own children wouldn't suffer from the anxiety I did, and would be one of the loons! 

If you had asked me before I'd had children to write down the characteristics I'd most hope them to have I would have said:
•Confident
•Stand up for themselves 
•Funny
•Determined 
•Happy
•Feel comfortable around family, (don't feel they have to be on their best behaviour for them etc.)

And I can safely say that with Boo, I got what I wished for. 
I totally admire all these traits, that will serve her well in years to come, but my gosh it can be a challenge parenting her sometimes! 



She constantly argues with us. Her reasoning and extensive vocabulary is way beyond her years, and something that we were unprepared for! 
Ever since she popped out of me (after being 2 weeks late and having to be forced out- stubborn mule!) she has known exactly what she wants and refuses to settle for anything less. She's the most particular and picky person I have ever met, and it's exhausting trying to meet her unique requirements all the time!



But genuinely, I'm proud of these annoying traits and I'm glad that she is strong willed enough to stand her ground and is certainly not afraid of making herself heard! Good for her! I'm sure it will help her go far in life- she is after all Thursday's Child, with "Far To Go". 

I really think she's amazing.

Boo turned 3 on Monday and we have enjoyed a weekend full of celebrations for her. I have sobbed a lot as my baby grows bigger and more independent, and prepares for life as a Big Sister. 
As a heavily pregnant woman this all seems quite a lot to deal with all at once and I flit from being excited and impatient for my girls to meet and start to grow together, to blubbing uncontrollably and feeling totally overwhelmed at the speed of which this is all happening.


In a matter of weeks Boo won't be my baby anymore- she'll be my Big Girl and will be faced with more responsibility and a lot less of Mummy's undivided attention. She will be forced to let Daddy do things for her (even though she is convinced he is incapable and says he doesn't understand her like I do). 

There will be a new member of the family living with us, a very demanding member. We can't wait to meet her, but neither of us really knows what the reality will be like. I'm also overwhelmed by the thought that this is our last baby (and it for sure is) and feel enormous pressure to soak in every single moment. 
I definitely don't want to have anymore children but the knowledge that this is it, our last experience of raising a baby, makes me feel like it's all gone so fast! None of my, nor my husband's, school or uni friends have kids yet, and I think it will be a good few years till any of them do. Which makes it even stranger to think that our baby journey is almost over, when non of their's have even begun! 

I know Boo will make a fantastic big sister- babies are her absolute favourite thing! It will just be emotional to see her in a much more grown up light. I think the smallness and helplessness of Bean will highlight just how grown up she really is. 


Thanks for reading!

MummyBear X



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